This has been a most interesting thread. Thanks all for the great dialog so far. It’s nice to know others have struggled with loving an amp woman. I did, suffered mightily, and still hurt a little when I let myself get back in that mind set of thinking of her as more than a friend.
And while at the love apex the suffering was intense, with the infatuation, sleepless nights, being distracted, neglecting my family, etc., It was also an incredible rush with some great outcomes including me losing serious weight, becoming super fit, paying attention again to how I dress, groom, act, etc. I literally felt/still feel younger, like 32 again, not 52. In many ways I think it saved me physically despite the pain emotionally.
All I all though I’d still recommend Not falling in love, the emotional suffering is not worth it. Stick to lust and friendship.