@kgmspa I may be ruthless. If I do, I apologize. I feel you where you are coming from because I had an Asian lady considering each other best friends because both of us are single. We shared our feelings and were growing our love more visit after visit. One day, I walked in to a parlor knowing her usual free time. But, she was busy with a customer. I went ahead with another provider and determined to be professional because I did not want to lose my original provider. I paid for the massage service at the receptionist area and my original provider was there as well. She was cool with it when making payment and left. On my way home, my favorite provider called while I was driving said not to come back and see her ever again. Of course her decision broke my heart. But, I got over it knowing what the original purpose of meeting her in the first place was. We have not seen or called each other ever since and I moved on enjoying my life with different providers knowing they are there for their hard earned bucks OR I support an Asian lady 100% if we are in a relationship. Based on simple Arithmetic on my end, it is cheaper to enjoy life with different providers than to stay with one found provider and dedicate 100% of my funds to her and absorb possible unnecessary emotions. I understand you need someone to talk to by venting out on this site. It may help you. It may not. No one can remove your heavy baggage for her except yourself. I hope things will go better for you eventually.