I'm spending way too much time thinking about them, and too much money every week trying to get to one.
This, exactly, has become the problem for me. It isn't even about the sex act anymore. When I was a young man, 35+ years ago, it was almost a compulsion to have sex right away once the thought got into my head. Even when I had a girlfriend waiting for me and I knew I would get it later that night, often I couldn't wait and needed to go see a provider immediately - and it didn't really matter to me who it was.
Other times, if I couldn't fall asleep after a stressful day and I was tossing and turning in bed, I'd get up and take a short walk to visit a late night spot, just to get the deed done so I could finally get some rest. Even though I had my favorites, again, it really didn't matter who was working.
My visits were always impulsive. I never made appointments in advance. I wouldn't think about them at all until I needed one and, when I went for a visit, l did my business and that was that.
Now, maybe because of my age and maybe because of the intenet, I feel like I am always thinking about it. Planning my next visit, reading reviews, looking for new AMPs. I know several friends my age who have stopped having sex altogether. Whether due to ED or other health issues, they just don't have the desire anymore. It's been the opposite for me, at least for the last few years, I am always thinking about it.
I've considering going cold turkey and taking an extended break from the hobby, but I'm not sure I could do it. For now, I'm just trying to taper off on my visits, but the lure of the Siren's song is still strong.