Mimi
It is the flesh that is responsible for the most intense of all the harebrained ideas that are constructed to give pleasure. As well accustomed to ED and other issues as later adults, we have a clear understanding of what lies in store for them as they grow older. I think the most important thing we miss is the growing out of what we are, only the times when we can feel where we were last and the strength of our own internal capabilities satisfying the DNA replication that is built into our system, are we truly alive.
As you progress, you reach certain levels, then at some point you realize there are no levels left. It is almost as if you want to control the action, but not the paradigm in which the action takes place. We have all been there at one time or another: I want this, I hope she wants that, maybe we both want it, can I accomplish that, am I capable of accomplishing that?
It is necessary for all of these things to go through one time at the end. What is the meaning of all of this? The purpose of our existence on this planet is to reproduce. As we go through life, there are few topics where true acceptance and invitation are rarely encountered. Some times we have to decide based on mutually identical likes and predetermined sets of relationship nuptials if we find those acceptable based on norms... But most of the time, we have to decide based on some level of mutually identical likes...
As we move up the Monger ladder, everything changes. As long as there are no boundaries, and as long as we receive what we requested, we accept this. As a result, we are brought back to a state of heightened awareness. It is not a negative experience to be exposed to this mammalian experience, which we rarely have. Let your body know that you're still capable of meeting its criteria, not shaped by today's social norms.
I just have my concerns as anybody else does, Or families, our neighborhoods, our cultural identity, the simple thing just trying to find some parking. Coming in the back door, or whatever else makes us feel ashamed.
I know this will get intense, but these are the things we live for, i'm just having some fun, i needed to get this off my chest.