Hello to all my fellow whore mongers. I've been lurking for a while and decided to finally join. I also just posted a review that's pending acceptance at this time. I've been seeing providers more or less weekly now for 3 years. I originally starting doing this on a regular basis to get over a heartbreak from unrequited love. I've been with at least 120 providers already.
My first regular fell in love with me. She was a 21 year old, beautiful, foreign born Latina. She was also a cocaine addict. First she started letting me stay for an extra hour paying the house out of her pocket. Eventually, let's just say the sex became more.....intimate. We starting seeing each other outside of the agency and she stopped charging me completely. I knew this wouldn't last so I tried to fuck her as often as possible. She stayed the night at my apartment. She started telling me directly and indirectly that she loved me but I took it with a grain of salt. Eventually, I started to fall in love with her as I was lonely and starved for affection. .Long story short, shit got real and it ended on a bitter note.
I really enjoy seeing providers but I am very lonely. I'm in my 30s and never had a serious relationship. A big part of me wants to love a woman and be loved by a woman. Another big part of me loves sexual variety and how easily it comes with the hobby. I think I've always been afraid of commitment. More specifically, I've been afraid having my heartbroken or breaking a woman's heart in a long term monogamous relationship. And now I've managed to fall in love with another provider. Unlike the first time, it's now reversed where I'm in love with her and she's yet to fall in love with me.
I'd like to hear from mongers around my age or older who have been doing this for 10+ years. How has this hobby effected you mentally? How do you deal with the loneliness in the long term if you are single? And how do you keep it from your SO or otherwise feel about cheating on them?
My first regular fell in love with me. She was a 21 year old, beautiful, foreign born Latina. She was also a cocaine addict. First she started letting me stay for an extra hour paying the house out of her pocket. Eventually, let's just say the sex became more.....intimate. We starting seeing each other outside of the agency and she stopped charging me completely. I knew this wouldn't last so I tried to fuck her as often as possible. She stayed the night at my apartment. She started telling me directly and indirectly that she loved me but I took it with a grain of salt. Eventually, I started to fall in love with her as I was lonely and starved for affection. .Long story short, shit got real and it ended on a bitter note.
I really enjoy seeing providers but I am very lonely. I'm in my 30s and never had a serious relationship. A big part of me wants to love a woman and be loved by a woman. Another big part of me loves sexual variety and how easily it comes with the hobby. I think I've always been afraid of commitment. More specifically, I've been afraid having my heartbroken or breaking a woman's heart in a long term monogamous relationship. And now I've managed to fall in love with another provider. Unlike the first time, it's now reversed where I'm in love with her and she's yet to fall in love with me.
I'd like to hear from mongers around my age or older who have been doing this for 10+ years. How has this hobby effected you mentally? How do you deal with the loneliness in the long term if you are single? And how do you keep it from your SO or otherwise feel about cheating on them?