Please delete if not allowed. But I have a feeling other mongers may feel similarly.
I was recently laid off from my job and my financial situation has changed dramatically. I have enough savings that I can tighten my belt and pay my bills comfortably for a few months. But that emergency fund is going to run out rather quickly if I keep going to spas or seeing providers every other week.
I've been mongering since my early 20s, when I was single, horny and full of energy and cum. Now I'm closer to 40, married, and family planning. I know we don't talk about SOs (except how to avoid them catching you), but I really do love my wife and can't wait to spend the rest of my life with her. She is absolutely my best friend. The sex is just a little vanilla sometimes, especially considering what I've experienced with some providers. Safety is obviously a concern as well. I mostly play safe, but there's always a risk. I don't want to hurt my wife, but I also can't seem to stop myself.
Whenever I get the urge and have an opportunity when the wife is away, it's like I have an insatiable compulsion. I've tried masturbating. Many times, I'm even pulling from the internal spank bank, thinking about past sessions with the provider I was thinking of seeing. But all that does is delay the inevitable, and I spend the rest of the week thinking about that provider and wanting to see them even more. I enjoy watching massage porn when thinking about visiting a spa, but that just makes me think "I WANT THAT." It also doesn't help that there are SO many options in NY, whether it's NYC or LI. It's just so accessible.
Eventually I just give in. Even worse, if I have a bad session, I'm back with a different provider a day or two later to get the bad taste (sometimes figuratively, sometimes literally) out of my mouth. I'll continue doing this until I have a good session. I spent over $1000 one week going back to the same spa every day until I was fully satisfied.
TL;DR I want to quit mongering, but I'm addicted to paid pussy. So I guess my question is, has anyone ever quit? And if so, how did you do it?
I was recently laid off from my job and my financial situation has changed dramatically. I have enough savings that I can tighten my belt and pay my bills comfortably for a few months. But that emergency fund is going to run out rather quickly if I keep going to spas or seeing providers every other week.
I've been mongering since my early 20s, when I was single, horny and full of energy and cum. Now I'm closer to 40, married, and family planning. I know we don't talk about SOs (except how to avoid them catching you), but I really do love my wife and can't wait to spend the rest of my life with her. She is absolutely my best friend. The sex is just a little vanilla sometimes, especially considering what I've experienced with some providers. Safety is obviously a concern as well. I mostly play safe, but there's always a risk. I don't want to hurt my wife, but I also can't seem to stop myself.
Whenever I get the urge and have an opportunity when the wife is away, it's like I have an insatiable compulsion. I've tried masturbating. Many times, I'm even pulling from the internal spank bank, thinking about past sessions with the provider I was thinking of seeing. But all that does is delay the inevitable, and I spend the rest of the week thinking about that provider and wanting to see them even more. I enjoy watching massage porn when thinking about visiting a spa, but that just makes me think "I WANT THAT." It also doesn't help that there are SO many options in NY, whether it's NYC or LI. It's just so accessible.
Eventually I just give in. Even worse, if I have a bad session, I'm back with a different provider a day or two later to get the bad taste (sometimes figuratively, sometimes literally) out of my mouth. I'll continue doing this until I have a good session. I spent over $1000 one week going back to the same spa every day until I was fully satisfied.
TL;DR I want to quit mongering, but I'm addicted to paid pussy. So I guess my question is, has anyone ever quit? And if so, how did you do it?