I used to think not so much “paying for it” as the other side of the coin... how someone else felt about being paid by strangers for sex. For example, at least 99% of us use a pseudonym for amps or “specialty houses”. A high amount of us use burner phones, or backup ones for the purpose of mongering. So, we are strangers to them. Most of the Asian women I’ve encountered...and there’s been a lot, use anglicized names because it not only makes it easy to remember coco, Julie, Tina, Mary, Anna and so on but it retains some personal pride and freedom for the service provider. Back to the original poster, do you feel that way? Did someone you confide in about your hobby say that? If it’s eating at you perhaps another hobby is in order.