Here’s my story. I’m a sex addict. Not like most of you who can have fun mongering year after year and only end up losing time and money. My loss is my mind, my sanity. I remember my first rub tug, my first fs. I’ve been trying to find that high till this day. But even those sessions brought guilt, shame, confusion, paranoia, anxiety. What if I get caught? Exposed? What if I caught something? Time after time, I run to get tested, always clean, but my mind says what if? I don’t feel well, maybe a false negative? I pray to god and tell him to forgive me, that it will be the last time, but I’ve already told him the same thing before. Why do I continue to put myself through this misery. That’s when I found out I’m a true addict. I tried limiting the hobby, only getting hj’s. Those turned to CBJ’s. I even gave up 3 years only for the devil to lure me back harder than before. My last date, something felt off. I felt so out of touch, so distant from what I was doing that it clicked and I’m done with this life. There’s absolutely no pleasure, only sadness. I’m planning on joining SAA meetings, going to therapy and getting tested one last time. Please pray for me brothers and hope I leave the game healthy and regain my life and mind back. Thank you for listening
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Farewell from a sad monger….. I hope
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Don't go to hard on yourself. I understand the concern of catching something but unfortunately you will always will have to keep that in mind even after mongering. Like the song says "These bitches ain't loyal!". Now the only thing I see that could be alarming is the spending that can get out of control. But asking forgiveness for having sex with multiple ladies hahaha is part of our DNA. Men were designed to smash from the beginning of time. Unfortunately society and the norms of people who tell us how to live life tell us we are not supposed to do that are fucking wrong fuck as much as you want. Just make sure to pick 1 of 3 roads. 1. Find a girlfriend marry that woman and live your life stuck to that female for life 1 pussy for ever. Or 2. Find yourself sugar babies if you are a baller. Or 3. MONGER UNTIL YOU SEE IT FIT. WE WERE CREATED WITH A PENIS AND A BUNCH 9F PUSSIES TO SMASH. HOLD TOUR SHIELD AND GO FOWARD. GODSPEED
Society has conditioned you to believe what you are doing is wrong. Just like it’s conditioned most mongers to treat the women that do this difficult job of pleasing us as though they’re just an object for our sexual gratification, a whore, nothing more. There’s nothing wrong with what these women do for work. There’s nothing wrong with us for choosing to enjoy intimate relations with them.
It’s only wrong if it’s hurting your wallet and your soul. There’s nothing wrong with pleasure, my friend. There’s nothing wrong with sex, meaningless or meaningful.
Obviously, this seems to be hurting your soul, so get the help that you think you need, but the shame, confusion and anxiety that you feel is brought about by cultural conditioning, rather than some moral malfeasance.
It’s only wrong if it’s hurting your wallet and your soul. There’s nothing wrong with pleasure, my friend. There’s nothing wrong with sex, meaningless or meaningful.
Obviously, this seems to be hurting your soul, so get the help that you think you need, but the shame, confusion and anxiety that you feel is brought about by cultural conditioning, rather than some moral malfeasance.
I think when it gets to the point when a guy seeks out prostitutes it's a full blown addiction. I mean we could be spending all our free time watching sports or listening to music, right? But nope, we keep thinking about that next amp girl who might turn out to be the best we ever had, acting upon it and this becomes one of if not the main focus in life.
