This thread is actually one of the more positive conversations I have seen on here. In terms of the subject matter at least. To OP: best of luck brother. I believe people can break out. Why im commenting: I think im out. Cold turkey. I make a lot less than some of you guys, and ive always been aware its an addiction for me personally, because I budget quite a lot for it. I met a girl a few months ago and slowed down, quite a bit. Spent more money on her than I could hobbying, tried to be the best man I can be for her, but she got scared of the commitment etc and (I wasnt perfect as hard as I tried to be) so she broke it off today. I immediately dived into the hobby and found someone to see and left 5 minutes ago thinking of this thread. It was the most mechanical fucking session ive ever had, and honestly, it made me feel more shitty and probably the most depressed ive ever been. Not saying this for attention, but jump off a bridge depressed (struggled with the self worth thing for a while/whats the point kind of shit). I cared for this girl deeply and to go from having amazing sex with someone you really cared about to that was shocking. I thought the hobby would be a crutch for me, but i definitely went to the wrong place. Why im writing it here is because I cant vent to anyone else, but also because it helps to write it out and understand that im unhappy. That it needs to be changed. Like a promise to myself. Anyway good luck OP. And hopefully im strong enough to join you. To you guys that enjoy it, in a healthy and safe way or dont and dont see it as a problem, keep having a blast honestly. But I want out.
