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Farewell from a sad monger….. I hope

Retired061024

The Lonely Monger
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Here’s my story. I’m a sex addict. Not like most of you who can have fun mongering year after year and only end up losing time and money. My loss is my mind, my sanity. I remember my first rub tug, my first fs. I’ve been trying to find that high till this day. But even those sessions brought guilt, shame, confusion, paranoia, anxiety. What if I get caught? Exposed? What if I caught something? Time after time, I run to get tested, always clean, but my mind says what if? I don’t feel well, maybe a false negative? I pray to god and tell him to forgive me, that it will be the last time, but I’ve already told him the same thing before. Why do I continue to put myself through this misery. That’s when I found out I’m a true addict. I tried limiting the hobby, only getting hj’s. Those turned to CBJ’s. I even gave up 3 years only for the devil to lure me back harder than before. My last date, something felt off. I felt so out of touch, so distant from what I was doing that it clicked and I’m done with this life. There’s absolutely no pleasure, only sadness. I’m planning on joining SAA meetings, going to therapy and getting tested one last time. Please pray for me brothers and hope I leave the game healthy and regain my life and mind back. Thank you for listening
 

AutomaticSlim

Wine is fine, but whiskey is quicker...
Messages: 7,067
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Here’s my story. I’m a sex addict. Not like most of you who can have fun mongering year after year and only end up losing time and money. My loss is my mind, my sanity. I remember my first rub tug, my first fs. I’ve been trying to find that high till this day. But even those sessions brought guilt, shame, confusion, paranoia, anxiety. What if I get caught? Exposed? What if I caught something? Time after time, I run to get tested, always clean, but my mind says what if? I don’t feel well, maybe a false negative? I pray to god and tell him to forgive me, that it will be the last time, but I’ve already told him the same thing before. Why do I continue to put myself through this misery. That’s when I found out I’m a true addict. I tried limiting the hobby, only getting hj’s. Those turned to CBJ’s. I even gave up 3 years only for the devil to lure me back harder than before. My last date, something felt off. I felt so out of touch, so distant from what I was doing that it clicked and I’m done with this life. There’s absolutely no pleasure, only sadness. I’m planning on joining SAA meetings, going to therapy and getting tested one last time. Please pray for me brothers and hope I leave the game healthy and regain my life and mind back. Thank you for listening
Good luck and Godspeed.
Even though I don't consider myself an addict, I absolutely know how you feel.
It's far too late for me.
Hope you can do it.
 

Contrita7

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Don't go to hard on yourself. I understand the concern of catching something but unfortunately you will always will have to keep that in mind even after mongering. Like the song says "These bitches ain't loyal!". Now the only thing I see that could be alarming is the spending that can get out of control. But asking forgiveness for having sex with multiple ladies hahaha is part of our DNA. Men were designed to smash from the beginning of time. Unfortunately society and the norms of people who tell us how to live life tell us we are not supposed to do that are fucking wrong fuck as much as you want. Just make sure to pick 1 of 3 roads. 1. Find a girlfriend marry that woman and live your life stuck to that female for life 1 pussy for ever. Or 2. Find yourself sugar babies if you are a baller. Or 3. MONGER UNTIL YOU SEE IT FIT. WE WERE CREATED WITH A PENIS AND A BUNCH 9F PUSSIES TO SMASH. HOLD TOUR SHIELD AND GO FOWARD. GODSPEED
 

tokintom86

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Society has conditioned you to believe what you are doing is wrong. Just like it’s conditioned most mongers to treat the women that do this difficult job of pleasing us as though they’re just an object for our sexual gratification, a whore, nothing more. There’s nothing wrong with what these women do for work. There’s nothing wrong with us for choosing to enjoy intimate relations with them.

It’s only wrong if it’s hurting your wallet and your soul. There’s nothing wrong with pleasure, my friend. There’s nothing wrong with sex, meaningless or meaningful.

Obviously, this seems to be hurting your soul, so get the help that you think you need, but the shame, confusion and anxiety that you feel is brought about by cultural conditioning, rather than some moral malfeasance.
 

Contrita7

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True addict? I think anyone on this board who does not consider himself a sex addict might be lying to himself. Sex dominates all our lives, we wouldn't be on this board if it didn't. I know I am. If it wasn't an addiction there would be no need to seek out whores.
Is not an addiction is your calling as men the reproduces. The only thing is that we don't want no baby mama drama
 

Contrita7

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If GOD is real, he created men and women for a reason and that reason is to reproduce. Fuck the law of man! We need to take control of our lives fuck everyone else telling us how to live!!!
 

Koondog

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Is not an addiction is your calling as men the reproduces. The only thing is that we don't want no baby mama drama
I think when it gets to the point when a guy seeks out prostitutes it's a full blown addiction. I mean we could be spending all our free time watching sports or listening to music, right? But nope, we keep thinking about that next amp girl who might turn out to be the best we ever had, acting upon it and this becomes one of if not the main focus in life.
 

Contrita7

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Be free!
I think when it gets to the point when a guy seeks out prostitutes it's a full blown addiction. I mean we could be spending all our free time watching sports or listening to music, right? But nope, we keep thinking about that next amp girl who might turn out to be the best we ever had, acting upon it and this becomes one of if not the main focus in life.
Have you seen other mammals in the wild!
 

didi88

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The OP fits pretty well the description of a typical sex addict. Are all of us here on the board addicts, though? There are some, yes, but there are plenty of others who just dabble once in a while. So it’s just a matter of degree. But as we all know, it’s a slippery slope once you start
 

TIskier

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So we are just wild animals lacking self-control?
At our biological heart we’re wired to reproduce. It’s our human side that assigns guilt & shame to those instincts. Animals just follow their instincts without assigning morality to those instinctual actions and drives.
 
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