“What you do when you fall in love with massage girl?
1. You smother her
2. Cause problems between her and owner/mamasan
3. Cause her to change shops, without notice
4. You visit her to often, more often than she really wants
5. You make her feel dirty, she’s ok doing what she does, but you attempt to love her, save her, rescue her, she doesn’t want to be rescued
6. You insert yourself into her life, she plays along, its her job, although you can’t differentiate
7. You cause her to treat you cold, you want something more and she just wants to earn a living.
8. You become isolated, you think about her everyday, all day
9. You spend money you really can’t afford, to see her
10. You are labeled by mamasan/provider, they have a special name for you, not a flattering one either
When a customer inserts himself into the life of a provider he does so selfishly, she can’t reject you as harshly as she typically would otherwise, since you insert yourself where she works, during her job, she depends on her return customer for earnings, she wants a decent tip, you attempt to include your heart, this places her in a very difficult situation. She eventually moves to another shop or city even, she’s happy until you find out where she’s relocated to and you once again insert yourself. You feel like she’s lying to you, as if she owes you something and has to be completely honest and forthcoming to you, she has a husband or at least one boyfriend, and you are neither to her. To her face and while you are alone, you speak well of her, to another monger you speak ill about her trying to mask your feelings. Your make believe rabbit hole wishes to kick you out, except you won’t look yourself in the mirror and come to terms with yourself. The fantasy becomes your life, no one but you is aware of it.
You become less productive, the addiction to her is overwhelming you.